Lyrics & Chords

The lyrics to all of these songs as well as the songs off of Green Chair Circle can be read and commented on at SongMeanings.

Light That Will Never Reach Me
February Sky
Beautifully Impaired
Sea Change
Reawakening

Light That Will Never Reach Me

I stopped by the party, but it felt so draining so I left early
Tried to get some sleep
See I’ve been feeling lonely, yeah lately I’ve been feeling so goddamn worried
That all I do is weep

I’ve been searching for a grand plan that I can open like a perfect key
Some kind of future safety I can guarantee

But I got the kind of fire that will never fuel me
Got imagination that will never fool me
Got the kind of water that will never cool me down
I want the kind of time that will never leave me
Want the kind of truth that will never deceive me
Want the kind of words, the kind of prayer so when I’m falling through the air
It will take me back to the ground

I tried to say the right thing, but the bullshit only leaves me feeling wary
I didn’t make a sound
I tried drinking the toxin but the ease it lasted only temporarily
I said don’t look down

If I could be the creator of a greater calculator where the operations save my soul
Then I could rule my life like a remote control

But I got the kind of breeze that will never chill me
Got the kind of kiss that will never thrill me
Got the kind of wine that will never fill me up
I want the kind of light that will never reach me
Want the kind of god that will never teach me
Want the kind of pain that will always leave me numb

But it all fades when you’re in my arms, yeah I know fire burns but so does living
And if it hurts too much to swallow it, well I say follow it ‘cause it’s what we’re given
Or hand me down some kind of shield to keep my love concealed, defend my heart
‘Cause the sweetest love is venomous and some tenderness is razor sharp

I got the kind of blood that will never mend me
Got the kind of skin that will never defend me
Got the kind of heart that always tends to break
I want the kind of lover who will never need me
Want the kind of promise that will never mislead me
Want the kinds of road I can roam that will always lead me home
No matter which path I take

February Sky

When I said that I’d write you a song
It never crossed my mind that the words might not belong
You know I didn’t want the song to go this way
I thought I knew the melody
But life it has this funny way of always changing key
Of winding round and leading me astray

The love you give is like that February sky
The flowers wonder why they bloom when it’s raining
Well I’d rather drown beneath that rain than never see you shine
The hurricane reminds me that I’m living

You know I didn’t mean to start this game
And I know you can’t stand to see these tears fall down the drain
Well this is nothing like the pain of when you’re gone
If this is just a step along the way
It’s a whole lot like the struggle that I go through every day
Of losing foot but always hanging on

To the hope that I might finally reach that February sky
The flowers wonder why they bloom when it’s raining
Well I’d rather drown beneath that rain than never see you shine
The hurricane reminds me that I’m living

Sometimes I wish these tears weren’t so dry
It was you who taught me to let go and watch it fly
And for you now I must try to do the same
And take this love for everything it’s worth
Fall down from where I stand, and put my hands around the earth
To embrace the sun but also feel the rain

‘Cause without it I could never see that February sky
The flowers wonder why they bloom when it’s raining
Well I’d rather drown beneath that rain than never see you shine
The hurricane reminds me that I’m living
Yeah I’m still living just don’t know why

Beautifully Impaired

It’s 4 AM and I can’t get to sleep
Ain’t got the patience to be counting sheep
And dreaming’s just another task to complete
And give to my teacher for a grade

My mind’s like open close machinery
It don’t stop to celebrate the scenery
And I can tell tomorrow’s sure to be
Another math test of a day

Where no matter how I try
My score is never high
And the time just passes by like empty lines across the page
I’m an empty page

Well me I’m sending out my own police
The president sends troops into the Middle East
I guess we’ll both kill in the name of peace
Well goddamn it feels a lot like war

So now we’re either terrorists or war machines
And we try to fit the world into our TV screens
Me I’m adding labels to my own daydreams
That I tuck safely in a drawer

Sometimes it seems like they get lost inside
The horizon of this endless cage I live inside
Other times it crushes in so tight my walls collide
Pinning all my hopes and dreams onto the floor

Well you know sometimes I wish I could just let ‘em out
It don’t help when I’m politely speaking out
So now all I can do is scream it out
Like I’ve never done before

Like my voice alone could lift me from these bars
Stop picking scabs off my own scars
Turn my back on shining stars or the comfort of the moon
My pain’s concealed, like knives could heal these wounds

Now I’m walking on a balance beam
A soldier aims his gun to keep me playing mean
I’m two feet from the ground, but in my mind it seems
Like the earth’s ten thousand feet below

But then the truth should come as no surprise
The soldier’s gun is just a simple disguise
‘Cause when you look deep into those tearful eyes
You see his dream of letting go

‘Cause I can struggle, I can fight
I can try to get it right
I can box my mind in tight, but lord I never feel the breeze
I cry a song, I fall down on my knees

So like a soldier trying to leave his wicked past behind
I put my weapons to the ground, but I’m still running blind
Looking for the strength to face this damn oppressive mind
Tugging at its leash to carry me away

So I know sometimes I fuck up on these tasks for you
And I try to hide these scars behind a mask for you
But the blood is there, and all I know to ask of you
Is that you love me anyway

But their eyes can melt my burning heart to cold again
And I’m competing, working, striving for the gold again
Sometimes I wish that I were six months old again
And I wouldn’t need to work to earn my love

But no one gets a second chance to live
I guess my best bet’s to learn how to forgive
And keep giving all that I know how to give
And hope to god that it’s enough

And give myself some room to grow outside
These tiny boxes of my mind
Where the soldier leaves this war behind, and me I offer him my prayer
That he’ll learn to see, aren’t we all beautifully impaired

Sea Change

I keep my curtains closed in the morning
Keep that sun on the other side
My room’s a jungle and my mind’s too full
To let the light inside

There’s ants out on the kitchen floor
There’s a storm inside my head
It’s gonna take a sea change to clear that sand
And get me out of bed

I spread my wings so I could fly above
But I don’t know how

So honey put your arms around me
Hold me like you do your secrets
Safe underneath that blanket
Cover up my pain runs deep as the ocean
Heavy as a snowing winter
Never gonna find arms strong enough to hold all that

Well I got a shot for every setback
A boat to sail me through my fears
But the largest steamer just ain’t so strong
To get me out of here

Well I guess that’s the thing about quicksand
You better try to calm on down
‘Cause the more you fight back
Yeah the more you combat the more you drown

Close my eyes so I could shed a tear
But I don’t know how

I pull the covers close, but still the screaming never stops
I blow the candle out, but still the fear it never fades
I close the door, turn out the lights
Still there’s nowhere that is safe

I keep my curtains closed in the morning
But there’s light on the other side

Reawakening

You’ve been looking for a place to rest your burden
Somewhere you don’t have to feel so all alone
You’ve been fighting through this battle of uncertainty
‘Cause that’s the only thing you’ve ever known
But if you let it all rise anyway, that shame that overtakes you
All those broken wounds that never seem to heal
Yeah even when you’re covered by the fear that tries to break you
Well I would love you still

I’ve been sleeping through the hours of the daytime
I’ve been wandering through the shadows of the night
I’ve been closing up my petals in the springtime
And when the leaves fall I hold on tight
My mind is like that city air that’s so polluted
I’ve been looking for a shelter or a cure
Still even when our crooked lives are convoluted
I know deep inside we’re pure

And like the tumbling of a waterfall
There’s no way that I can catch it all
But I’ll be hoping for a few sweet drops
Of reawakening that never stops
‘Cause we are broken we are shattered souls
But it’s our emptiness that makes us whole
Just the way we are

You’re make-believing that your life don’t start ‘til after
Every flower of your spirit is in bloom
But in the meantime there’s playfulness and laughter
And there’s dancing ‘neath the glowing of the moon
So let the earth do it’s spinning and let the leaves do their fading
Let them slip into the breathing of the wind
And let your spirit’s windows open ‘cause there’s beauty out there waiting
Just for you to let it in